Freedom...not quite ready for it!

So...I have officially been let off the "HMR leash," and to be honest with you I didn't handle it as well as I would have hoped.

Last week I was told by my health educator, that I could incorporate other foods into my diet on an "experimental basis." I'm not exactly sure what that means, but I don't think I did it quite right.

I began by having 1 cup of 2% milk with my fruit...not bad right? The next day we went to a salad bar, and the only non-veggie items that I incorporated were 1 hard boiled egg and probably less than 2 oz of blue cheese. I also substituted an entree for a cup of white chicken chili....still not too bad.

Well then Saturday came....and to be honest with you, I went into the day with a plan. I was going to have 6 oz of salmon for dinner. And I did, however as I was cleaning out Jay's snack cupboard, I made the mistake of trying one of his honey cinnamon almonds. I'm not lying when I say this, my mind went to a very scary place. All of a sudden I was popping almonds in my mouth one after another...I finally had to dump them in the garbage and pour my salmon juice on them to keep me from picking them out of the trash! HOW SAD IS THAT!!! I probably had about 2 oz of almonds, but that's not the point. I never thought I would go back to that place, and I totally did.

The next day's strategy included sampling some of the cravings I have been having, in small portions so that (hopefully) the craving would be fulfilled and I wouldn't want it anymore. So, I had a piece of bread with peanut butter on it, and felt pretty successful about the outcome...I wasn't crouched in a dark corner with the jar of peanut butter clutched in my hand, scraping the remains out with my finger or anything like that. Later that day, while having to watch Jay eat mass amounts of Reese's, Heath, and cookie dough ice cream, I felt as if my best strategy would be to eat some frozen fat free Cool Whip....WELL I ATE THE WHOLE CONTAINER!!! And the sad thing...I still wanted ice cream, so yesterday I allowed myself 1 cup of ice cream and I now feel as though that craving has past.

I know this hasn't been the most exciting post, and I am too embarrassed to post pictures of me stuffing food into my pie hole, but I believe it is necessary to share the good and the bad. This week has been an extremely challenging week, and I feel as though I have never had a closer bond with my treadmill, but I am learning from it, and hopefully will be stronger each day because of it! Wish me luck!

Oh, by the way, I was down 2.7 lbs last week.....putting me 3.8 lbs away from my wedding goal weight.